Cluesless about being madly in love?

hi, im in high school, or rather, about to graduate. its fun, i have a lot of friends and my grades are good. In fact, i think i might get into an Ivy League. I participate in a ot of activities. My goal though, had been to make a difference in this world. To rise above and uplift the poor and the exploited. As I grew, pion for that began to dwindle. Then I saw this girl on TV, maybe 6 or so years older than me who I fell madly in love with. I said to myself, somehow, I will get into that Ivy League and rise above the ranks and marry her. I found out that shes a new actress, and shes about to maryy a 40 something actor. But then again, these clebrity marriages never last! So i have hope. I have her movie on DVD, which I watch segments of everyday during my freetime. Aside from that i'm devoting all my time to working hard. I dont love her only in a ual way, in fact I could just stare at her all day long. But I work hard. But then sometimes I think of reality...maybe its not poss